I've been running. Not every run has been a good one and not every day has been a good day but I have kept it up. I completed my August goal of 60 miles.
Yesterday, I buckled both kids into the Phil & Ted's double stroller and pushed 58 pounds of kids plus almost 30 pounds of stoller for 5 hard miles outdoors in 84 degree heat and east coast humidity to push myself over the 60 mile goal. That's more than 75% of my body weight that I pushed along that trail. I'm never sore after my runs... Today I'm sore.
I did realize that an official half marathon is not going to happen. Due to my husbands schedule, he has not been doing any long runs and the other friend that was going to do it with me hasn't either. I'm not going to pay all that money and make my kids wake up early to go do it alone. It seems so self-indulgent and self-congratulatory to make such a big deal about running. My bestie from home had a good idea though. She said to map out the run outdoors and then do a virtual half-marathon run. I don't know.
I run because I'm stressed. I run because I'm anxious. I run because I need a break from my kids. I run because I'm bored. I run because I want a break from my kid's voices. I run so I can visit with my Tuesday morning running group. I run so I can eat cookies and Cheez-Its with impunity.
You know that person in life who's like, "I totally bought the cutest high/low mullet dress yesterday!" or "You should totally try this new thing called almond butter- it's the best!" or "We just got this thing called Netflix. Have you ever heard of it?". Or "I wish there was a watch that had GPS and could track your runs outdoors and monitor heart rate and calories burned".
That's how I feel right now.
I picked up a new book to read. It's been... Let's just say it's been a while.
I know I am WAY behind all of the cool kids but give me a break. I've been too busy shrinking my butt to worry about growing my brain. Priorities, people. And I'm not sure that "Gone Girl" will grow my brain, for that matter, anyways.
Life is still crazy. My husband is still in Chief induction hell and this solo parenting gig is for the birds. Single parents do not get enough credit. My computer is still down so blogging is just not happening still BUT as I was going through deleting pictures off my phone I came across this gem and had to share it.
I spent last weekend out of town at the besties house with the kids. We packed up all the kids and took them to a little po-dunk 4-H fair down the way where I accidentally snapped this shot.
This 650 pound pig has no idea that his future looks like that little sandwich there in her hand. Poor guy.
Ps- yes, I'm a life-long vegetarian and, yes, I feed my kids hotdogs. What can I say? They like them.
I pinky promise I'm going to remind my husband to finish fixing my computer on Sunday during his (hopefully) couple spare hours. He replaced the hard drive but still needs to download the re-store operating system.
Cheers to a good weekend full of sunshine, friends and family, and laughter.
Long nails. No. Gross. Yuck. If I'm talking to you and I look down to see long nails, even if they are perfectly manicured (and let's be honest, they probably aren't), all I can think of is how much poop, bacteria, dead skin cells, gunk, and boogers are hanging out in there. This might be because I've lived in the land of poopy diapers 24 hours a day for the past 4 years but still. Yuck. Poop. Nails. Gunk. Gross.
Penises. My son is obsessed with his penis. It is his favorite toy, his constant companion, and his comfort item when he puts himself to sleep. He has to hold it. He shimmies his hand down his diaper and holds onto his little buddy. The uninteded consequence of this special relationship is that he pees out of his diaper and onto his clothes/sheets EVERY SINGLE SLEEP. I will never understand the male weiner love.
Hashtags for your kids. You know what I'm talking about- "Here's Penelope playing at the park #penelopeanne". Whhhyyyyy?! Why hashtag your kids name? Who do you think is going back on Instagram to look at all the pics of your kid? No one, right? Hash tagging your kids name also seems to go along with the, also unnecessary, posting multiple pics a day of your kid. Yes, your kids are cute but multiple pics a day is highly unnecessary. If Mom wants more pics if the kids, let me remind you of this thing called "text message" on your phone.
Commercials. Does anyone watch live TV anymore? Doesn't everyone have a DVR? I watch ZERO live tv. None. Ever. I don't see any commercials. Do people still see commercials?
So remember my last fitness check in post I mentioned that I needed new running shoes and everyone recommended that I pony up the money and go to a running store to get fitted and get some decent shoes... Well, I didn't take that advice. I'm cheap frugal. I went to Marshall's and not only bought my running shoes at a discount store but I chose the ones on clearance ($31). What can I say? I have the frugal gene and i just can't help it. I got New Balance Running 861's and so far, so good. I'm having a bit more shin and knee pain than before but I'm running a lot more often and a lot further each run so who knows.
My goal of 60 miles in August has started off well. I am continuing to do my "long run" on Mondays and then running a couple other days a week.
This run, last week was great. I did 8 miles in 77 minutes. I felt strong and good. I was motivated and got the endorphins flowing early in the run.
This was my run this Monday. I did 10 miles for the first time in my life but before you congratulate me, I did walk in between some of the miles and the total time was 111 minutes (11 minute/mile average). The truth is, I wasn't that tired or sore or out of breath... I was bored and unmotivated. I was tired from life and unmotivated to work hard. When I woke up the next day after my 8 miler last week, my muscles were sore. When I woke up on Tuesday after this 10 miler, I was a little stiff but my muscles weren't sore. Clearly, despite the increase in distance, I didn't work as hard.
I'm working. I'm feeling stronger. I'm putting in the effort most days. I'm proud of the gains that I've made. My body hasn't changed much on the outside but to be honest, with my husband being gone and being a solo parent, I have made zero effort in eating clean. Chocolate, carbs, and wine are helping me get through these long days.
My computer is still down. I took it into Best Buy and the hard drive is broken. Kids are awesome! (Sarcastic voice). I need to call to order the restore operating system disk from the laptop company. Until my lap top is fixed, this little space is going to suffer.
There's been a lot going on lately. My husband has been gone 18+ hours/day 7 days/week for the past week with no relief in sight (it will be another 5 weeks of the same). The long days are starting to get easier to deal with and the kids don't mind at all that dinners have been things like peanut butter and cake frosting sandwiches, chopped up cherries with turkey dogs, and yogurt with turkey slices and saltines. They are thanking me for all of my hard work by rewarding me with extra temper tantrums and non-stop sickies but nobody ever said this gig was an easy one.
I've continued being successful with my runs. The gym has proven to be a savior for me during the long days. I drop them in the child care center and use up all two hours of that free break. If I could figure out how to drop them in care and then sneak out the front door to get my nails done or a hair cut, that would be perfection. I might need to find a disguise shop to get this plan in motion.
So, we're ok. Busy, stressed, tired- but ok. Enjoying the evenings playing outside together. Having daily play dates with friends to stay occupied. Building endless Lego castles inside during the hot hours. Having countless dance parties together in the mornings. Cooling down with otter pops when the evening grumps get too much to handle.
I can't complain. The days are long but the years are short. How have you been? How are you spending these last days of summer?