They're both smiling and playing and enjoying life. They are both completely content in their world. They are at peace in this moment. They don't know, nor do they care what else is going on other than being present and being happy.
I am stressed. Lots of decisions have to be made regarding my husbands career. We have to sell our house (or not), move across the country (or not), and get out of the military (or not), among other decisions. And all of these decisions need to be made now. And I don't have any control. I don't have any power. I have to just follow along.
I am not a "go with the flow"er. I am not a keep your mouth shut and trust the process kind of girl. I am a planner. I like to be in control over my life. I like to be the decision maker. But I am not.
Anyways, there is no point to the story today. I am not able to look at my kids and learn a lesson about being ok in this moment. I see them full of peace and joy but I am unable to release and just be calm in the face of these life altering changes. I am stressed. I am struggling.
Sorry for the rambling but this is where my heart is right now.