Tall brown Uggs
Burberry Giant Check Scarf
But then life got in the way of my Christmas list.
See this car?
This is our car. The bow on it because it was my Christmas present two years ago when I was pregnant (sweet, right?!?!?). The check engine lights were coming on. My husband checked the code that it was pulling. It was an air system code so he decided to take it to the dealership to have them look at it to determine what was going on. There is no Lexus dealership in the area so he took it to the Toyota dealership. Turns out that some air thing was broken. $3500 later we have our car back. And because it was at the Toyota dealership instead of a Lexus dealership it took them double the amount of time to fix it too!
We are driving our Christmas presents this year.
One of the unexpected side effects of my Mom dying is the change in my thoughts about life and hardship. Before my Mom died, I worried a lot about the future and saving and planning for a perfect future- even at the detriment to our current happiness. We didn't go on on vacations so that I could put that money in our secondary savings account so we could put 20% on a downpayment for a house that we might not purchase for another 10 years. We skipped taking trips home so that we could hurry to pay off my school debt that wasn't due for another 10 years. I am the person who doesn't order a soda with dinners to save the $2.25. I was so focused on saving and planning for the future that it was hard to make decisions that we could enjoy now.
Since my Mom died, I worry much less about trying to plan the perfect future. Sometimes, arguably most times, we don't get to choose our future. It happens. This is not a dress rehearsal. We only get one shot at life. Scrimping, saving, stressing, saying no to life, making decisions from a place of fear. No thank you.
When we found out how much money it was going to cost to fix the car, my husband was really pissed/annoyed/upset. After determining that we didn't have any other option (he couldn't fix it himself, they aren't ripping us off, etc), I just sighed and said, "OK. No biggie". My husband is like, "This sucks. I did not want to spend all of this money on the car blah blah". I reminded him that there are SO MANY worse things in life. Having an expensive broken car is so far down the list of things that could go wrong in life, it doesn't even count. Pretty much anything that could go wrong would be worse that this.