Time and worries

11.22.2011

My sweet baby is 18 months old.  She is big and strong.   She is wild and silly. I can hardly believe how time has flown by.  I can hardly remember life before her.  When I think back to life before her, I am almost embarrassed about how lame it, or maybe I, was.

When I look at that picture, it seems like a life time ago.  I had a new baby that I didn't know how to take care of.  I did not have clue how to be a Mom and I questioned every move I made.  I lived in paradise with the love of my life.  We had a simple existence.  My only worries were about keeping my baby alive and hopefully helping her to thrive.  Every worry that I had was solved by my Mom's wisdom, nursing experience, and kind, tough love.  I had a Mom.
Here we are.  My baby is hardly a baby anymore.  I don't have a Mom anymore.  We bought our first house.  We live half way across the world in a cold, dark place.  My worries have expanded exponentially.  I have lots of worries.  And no Mom.

18 comments:

  1. As much as God is our Father, I believe with all of my heart that God also fills that loving and wise Motherly role in our lives as well.
    When our Mothers are absent, He steps in and covers us with the gentlest of hugs. He is tender and kind. And offers a strength incomparable to that of any earthly Mother.
    Lean on Him for support. I promise He won't let you down...
    I am sorry for your loss though...
    May this new life of yours in a cold and unfamiliar place be filled with new triumphs and joys!
    xoxo

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  2. You are doing a great job as a Mom and therefore your mom is still around in a way since you know in your heart what she would say about this or that...You are very much your mother's daughter.

    Unfortunately becoming a homeowner and a mother will not decrease your worries but I'm sure the happiness; laughter and love will also increase exponentially now too!
    Love you XOXO

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  3. I agree with Amy, your mother lives through your actions. You can tell through your blog/posts that you are a great mother, the pictures of the two of you are beautiful. Hugs sent your way!

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  4. Thanks for the sweet comment!:) I'd love it if we followed each other!

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  5. I'm so sorry your mom is no longer around, but she definitely keeps living in you because of everything she taught you. Your little one is absolutely gorgeous!
    www.saysskippy.blogspot.com

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  6. what a cutie you have on your hands.

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  7. I'm sorry about your mom :( But it sounds like she passed a lot onto you and you are a great mom yourself now!

    Thanks for stopping by my blog!

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  8. I am sorry about your mom.

    Trust your instincts... I am sure your mom taught you well and you will do what is best for your little one. NO mom is perfect and we all make mistakes - it helps us be better parents. Just love your baby and all will be well.

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  9. I am sorry about your mom! I know she is always with you in some shape or form whether you know it or not.... I am sure she would tell you to trust your gut & that you are a great mom :)

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  10. Thank you for visiting my blog! And what a sweet baby (little girl) you have! I was so moved by this post. Being a mom is hard...and wherever your mom is, I know she's looking at you and being proud. xo

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  11. I'm sorry to hear about your mother but think it's wonderful that you are one. Congrats on your move (I hope I can make one soon) and please come back to visit my blog!

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  12. I am SO SO sorry! I can't even begin to imagine what that is like. My grandma (mom's mom) is dying right now. At a blessed age of 91. I can't imagine not having my mama when I had a baby of my own. Hang in there. You are super tough but I hope you don't always feel like you have to be. Find a strong shoulder to lean on and help you along the way. xoxoxo

    xo chanel
    http://bywayofney.blogspot.com/

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  13. oh my goodness. this is exactly why I love photos. I think we can't them for granted sometimes. they're filled with amazing memories and times in our lives like this. so cute. thanks for sharing, love. I've got a new fash trend report. Love to hear what you think. xo

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  14. I'm so sorry sweetie! Hang in there. I'm sure it's very tough, I could never imagine.

    Speaking of babies, I feel the same way about Mia. She's far from a baby anymore.

    Hugs.

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  15. every mom has a ton of worries...i think it is natural. but you learn as you go and power through. those photos are so precious... so sorry about your mom but i know she is still there guiding you...

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