Grateful

11.24.2011

Today, I am struggling to stay positive. I am so thankful for my smart, verbal, always dancing daughter. I am so thankful for my hard working husband who supports me in every way. I am thankful that I have the OPPORTUNITY to be stressed out about purchasing our home. I am thankful that my body is strong and healthy and the same can be said for everyone else in my little family. I am thankful for all of my sisters and Dad who are celebrating together today along with the rest of my family in California. I am grateful that I have so much more than I could ever need. I want for nothing, really.

I am thankful. I am also sad. I miss my Mom and I wish she wasn't dead. It is hard to be positive and enjoy the holiday when my heart is so full of sadness about my Mom.

For my husband and daughter's sake I am going to hide my tears and suck it up and enjoy this day of thankfulness.

Happy Thanksgiving to us all.

9 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so down about your Mom. It can't be easy. Though I'm under different circumstances, the Holidays are always tough for me. I haven't celebrated with my own family in 5 years now :-/

    *Hugs* Happy Thanksgiving! Xo

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  2. I am so very sorry sweetie! I know it will always be hard & you will always miss her dearly especially on holiday seasons when it is meant to be spend with loved ones but remember she is with an amazing father & she gets to watch over you & your little family every single day so she is with you every where you go even if you cannot see her.....I hope you have a good Thanksgiving!

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  3. I couldn't imagine losing my mom so young. I admire your strength. I do hope you had a great Thanksgiving!

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  4. When someone who is part of the foundation of who we are is absent from special holidays/events, it makes being "happy" a bit more challenging. And yet, I see you drawing strength in re-grounding yourself in what you do have in this moment.

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving, and keep on drawing on these amazing positives in your life!

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  5. I really appreciate this post. I didn't lose a loved one this year but due to some tough stuff going on in my own family my Dad isn't at our Thanksgiving this year and it's been really hard for me. I've cried everyday for a few weeks about it and yesterday I sucked it up and kept it together for the family.

    I'm sorry it was tough for you - but thanks for being honest and open here.

    love,
    B

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  6. We missed you! I think mom would have been happy with the way the day went, but of course she would have done it better. Gary and I set off the fire alarm in our kitchen when grease from the turkey smoked up the oven! LOL. I think next year we should try and do a holiday or family trip to MD and you can host everyone in your massive new house! xoxo

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  7. I'm so sorry about your mom. I miss my brother every day and know how difficult the holidays are. Thinking of you...

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  8. I'm sorry that you were having a tough time! I hope you were still able to enjoy the holiday!

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